I know you didn't mean to, but you brought this on yourself.
I can play the guitar/ukulele now. I'm self-taught over many slow-progressing years, not having much natural aptitude. But I'm from a family of musicians, my husband and sons all play, and I couldn't get anyone to teach me or help me practice at my pace. It was too frustrating and boring to learn with a not-so-natural beginner. I get that, but it still hurt. My sons' partners had the same experience. Now I have no interest in playing with any of them. I'd rather play by myself, because I had convince myself for years that playing by myself was good enough and I didn't need them involved for it to be worthwhile. Funnily enough, now I believe it.
I know you didn't mean to, but you brought this on yourself.
I can play the guitar/ukulele now. I'm self-taught over many slow-progressing years, not having much natural aptitude. But I'm from a family of musicians, my husband and sons all play, and I couldn't get anyone to teach me or help me practice at my pace. It was too frustrating and boring to learn with a not-so-natural beginner. I get that, but it still hurt. My sons' partners had the same experience. Now I have no interest in playing with any of them. I'd rather play by myself, because I had convince myself for years that playing by myself was good enough and I didn't need them involved for it to be worthwhile. Funnily enough, now I believe it.