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I hope you read my comment as being completely in your corner!
It wouldn't be right of me to give you advice since I only know you here but maybe it can be a bump in the road on your journey. You didn't drive off that road and over a cliff by having the response you did. It's wholly understandable that that happened. I think 99% of victims of sexual trauma have had that happen.
It does make you feel so down on yourself. When I finally got the courage to disclose, some people in my life didn't believe me because it just sounded so f-cked up. It makes me feel gross that I handled things the way I did. The weird part about it, for me, is that I have to work so very hot on forgiving myself for being a victim. I was trained to be a victim my entire life. Yet I still get so disgusted with myself for behaving in a way that is ingrained in me.
I think you have a lot of strength and courage that you're open with your boyfriend about it. Not everyone has been able to take that step. You're doing the hard work and it shows. Give yourself the grace that you give to others because you deserve that.
Good point. Perhaps I’ve gotten used to the back and fourth of her loving me for a few days or weeks then out of nowhere getting triggered and treating me like I’m nothing, projecting her past and insecurities on me. She’s on her phone most of the day scrolling through social media watching random videos. She did read books but not much the past couple weeks. We’ve definitely had a lot of deep meaningful moments but as of the past few weeks it’s just been constant anxiety because either the day is really good or really bad mostly depending on her mood and how she acts towards me. She does dishes every now and then and cooks, other than that she just lays in bed. She doesn’t go out on walks with me or anything.
I hope you read my comment as being completely in your corner!
It wouldn't be right of me to give you advice since I only know you here but maybe it can be a bump in the road on your journey. You didn't drive off that road and over a cliff by having the response you did. It's wholly understandable that that happened. I think 99% of victims of sexual trauma have had that happen.
It does make you feel so down on yourself. When I finally got the courage to disclose, some people in my life didn't believe me because it just sounded so f-cked up. It makes me feel gross that I handled things the way I did. The weird part about it, for me, is that I have to work so very hot on forgiving myself for being a victim. I was trained to be a victim my entire life. Yet I still get so disgusted with myself for behaving in a way that is ingrained in me.
I think you have a lot of strength and courage that you're open with your boyfriend about it. Not everyone has been able to take that step. You're doing the hard work and it shows. Give yourself the grace that you give to others because you deserve that.
But you blocked her? Make it make sense
Yes run.
Good point. Perhaps I’ve gotten used to the back and fourth of her loving me for a few days or weeks then out of nowhere getting triggered and treating me like I’m nothing, projecting her past and insecurities on me. She’s on her phone most of the day scrolling through social media watching random videos. She did read books but not much the past couple weeks. We’ve definitely had a lot of deep meaningful moments but as of the past few weeks it’s just been constant anxiety because either the day is really good or really bad mostly depending on her mood and how she acts towards me. She does dishes every now and then and cooks, other than that she just lays in bed. She doesn’t go out on walks with me or anything.