Like relationships, friendships don't work when you're a mess. A friendship isn't just for you to fill a void, it's a space where you respect, love, help and have fun with each other and you can't provide that right now. The fact that you, again, initiated contact with your ex while knowing full well what kind of a man he is, shows that you have a long way to go before you are ready for new relationships in any form or shape. Work on your issues. Learn to rely on yourself and become emotionally independent. Maybe then your friendships can be rekindled.
this especially since doggy style usually feels deeper than eg missionary
Like relationships, friendships don't work when you're a mess. A friendship isn't just for you to fill a void, it's a space where you respect, love, help and have fun with each other and you can't provide that right now. The fact that you, again, initiated contact with your ex while knowing full well what kind of a man he is, shows that you have a long way to go before you are ready for new relationships in any form or shape. Work on your issues. Learn to rely on yourself and become emotionally independent. Maybe then your friendships can be rekindled.
You make sure you have all of your stuff. you text him “its over” then you block him on EVERYTHING. stop letting him manipulate you.
He is guilting the fuck out of you