Find good things to spend time on outside of your toxic environment. Friends, career, interests, etc. It just seems like you are dependent on your toxic environment because you have nothing else when you leave it. It seems like you don't have the mentality to be able to handle not being in a relationship and living on your own, then you need to start finding and creating things in your life to spend your time on.
Mate, you are delusional. You have been taken for a ride in every way. Shut it down
Find good things to spend time on outside of your toxic environment. Friends, career, interests, etc. It just seems like you are dependent on your toxic environment because you have nothing else when you leave it. It seems like you don't have the mentality to be able to handle not being in a relationship and living on your own, then you need to start finding and creating things in your life to spend your time on.
No. I posted it for a reason.
but you like the concept of cheating?