My (24m) girlfriend (22f) acted completely inappropriately while she was drunk and I’m considering to end things.
My girlfriend oftentimes goes out with her colleagues to club after work and stuff. And I've never had any problems with it, except that I've had one rule: no drinking to or near her limit. If shes with her family or her girlfriends, the rule doesn't apply because I trust that they will look after her. But not her colleagues, i don't really know them. And once she actually drank to her limit at an after work party and I had to grab her from the train station pretty much passed out on the train. Walked her home (took 30 minutes, and the walk is usually 12 minutes. But she kept throwing up a long the way, cleaned her up at home, changed clothes.. you know the drill)
But then anyways, I set some ground rules after that day and we called it. Fastforward to last night, she went out with her colleagues and i went out with a friend of mine. We planned that if we're done around the same time, I can probably go to her and we go home together. Now she texts me that she's not feeling good and she needs help, and at this point I'm actually getting concerned and a bit bothered because we have that one rule and she decided to go ahead and break it. I arrive at the club and she comes out in a very happy mood ( I was a bit confused, I thought she wasn't feeling good. But then I noticed that she was just very drunk and her moods were just swinging up and down).
I tried to call an Uber home after that because the last busses and trains had already departed and then suddenly the Uber starts taking a long time on finding a driver. I wait for a few minutes, until she asks me what am I doing? I tell her, and she just completely flips. Starts shouting at me in public and storms off to the side. I keep waiting for the Uber app until I decide to use Bolt. By the time I put in our address, she's already looked up the route on bolt and shows her phone to me and asks if she should order it, I instantly say yes but then she flips again. Saying “what's the whole purpose of you being here if i have to order the taxi myself?” I don't say anything and just continue to order it on my phone. When the taxi arrived, she was still shouting at me and pushing, until I told her to “fuck off, and stop pushing me”. She storms off.
I go after her, and I told her that we will talk about this once we get home, let's just get into the taxi for now. During the ride home, I change my mind. I actually don't want to talk about this at home, because it's 3 am on a Wednesday and I'm pretty sure she's going to shout and wake up the neighbors.
So when we get home, she starts shouting and raising her voice at me in the hallway to our apartment. And then I just tell her that I don't want to talk about this now, and we'll do so when she's sober tomorrow. (Also one thing I forgot to mention, is that I have a lot of trauma from being raised by an alcoholic father, so I've told her in the past that I can't handle to argue or fight with a person that is drunk when I'm sober, because it brings up a lot of my past trauma from my childhood). But when she hears that I don't want to talk and argue about it right away that moment, she brings out her phone, smashes it at the ground as nude as she can, storms off into the streets. I go after here after picking her phone up and stuff, and start looking for her outside. I find her after a while and when I do she immediately lets out these very louds screams.
I eventually get her inside, processing what the fuck just happened. And all the while I'm trying to avoid talking to her. But she won't leave me alone, keeps insisting that we talk it out right that moment, despite the fact that I keep telling her I don't feel comfortable talking to her while she's that drunk and unstable. She starts blocking my ways and raising her voice. I repeatedly had to ask her to lower her voice because she would disturb the neighbors. This goes on for 30-40 minutes until she asks me if I'm considering a breakup, I said “not until you smashed your phone and let out those very loud screams” she asks me again as if that was a not good enough answer, so I just say “YES!” out of frustration. She started crying and I felt very bad about it so I immediately apologized. She went to bed after that, and I slept on the couch.
I woke up this morning, still processing and wondering if I should end things or not. Because I feel like I can't be with someone this unpredictable at this point. She's at work right now and won't be home until the evening. But I would like some advice on what I can do before settling on a break up. I love her a lot and we've built something beautiful over the last ~2 years, so I don't want to do something I would ultimately regret. Thanks.
Edit: Just to clarify. She does not have addiction problem with alcohol. She does not consume it on regular basis. Maybe once or twice a month at most. We have plenty of moments where we only consume only a small portion. But she does however, like most people her age, occasionally drinks a lot. I'm sorry if my writing made her seem like she's an alcoholic, that's my mistake, I did occur to me to clarify that further in my writing. Also, this is a first for her to react so violently.