Fiancé and strippers

I’ve been along with my fiancé for 7 years. We have 2 kids together and a house. We now have never had any believe in issues when it comes to cheating/talking to other people etc . We’ve always been very committed to eachother. Well last weekend he was down in the city for any convention with his friend. When he got home I just had this intuition such as something had happened… I did something I should’nt have got and I went through his telephone. (First time ever, all of us trust eachother and have IN NO WAY gone through eachother’s phones). I actually ended up finding a text among him and his other friend saying “I got sucked into a 1 hr lap dance with two young ladies that came to $800.. I can blow my brains out”. I was FUMING. #1. He or she went to the strip membership without even mentioning it to me. We have gone with each other before and had lap dances together so I have no problem with him going and tossing money to the girls onstage, but a private dance for that long? No . Not to mention I simply pushed out our second kid 10 months ago and I didn’t ‘bounce back’ very well this time. I’m actually struggling with my body image so this was a slap in the face. I am aware that’s my own insecurities although. #2. He spent all of that money right before Christmas and do NOT have that kind of cash to spend. I’m just actually heartbroken over it all. We keep imagining the whole situation in my head because I have seen his reaction to lapdances since we’ve gotten them together. I really need to discover how to get past this. I feel such as trust has been broken plus that’s not an easy thing to get back from me. Obviously he’s sorry and said it meant nothing, said he’s embarrassed it happened blah blah blah. I just don’t know how to move past this.

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