Firstly, I'm sorry for your loss. You need counselling right now. Not advice from a bunch of idiots on the internet, which includes me.
But this is the internet, so I'll be blunt
So many people, my fiancé and my mum, said it was morbid and creepy and I was making a happy, joyous occasion all about me and my grief
It is creepy and morbid. I can't seriously believe that you were considering bringing a morbid reminder of death down the isle with you when you were intending on getting married. What many people consider 'The best/happiest day of your life' was going to be overshadowed by the morbid, bleak, reminder of your still born daughter. All because you communicated terribly what you're true intentions were for the day.
they didn't realise that I have/had a bouquet because I hadn't thought to mentioned before because I didn't think I needed to because I thought it would be obvious.
At no point did you tell anyone you planned on bringing a bouquet with you. You only said you were walking down the isle with your dead daughters dress. You didn't think that maybe he didn't want to be reminded, immediately as you arrive on the alter, of his dead daughter? You didn't think. You're still mourning.
In my opinion this relationship is probably over. You communicate terribly. You ran away from the wedding that was planned since 2017. And you do not sound ok.
Yes! Thank you for saying this! I hope OP sees it
Firstly, I'm sorry for your loss. You need counselling right now. Not advice from a bunch of idiots on the internet, which includes me.
But this is the internet, so I'll be blunt
So many people, my fiancé and my mum, said it was morbid and creepy and I was making a happy, joyous occasion all about me and my grief
It is creepy and morbid. I can't seriously believe that you were considering bringing a morbid reminder of death down the isle with you when you were intending on getting married. What many people consider 'The best/happiest day of your life' was going to be overshadowed by the morbid, bleak, reminder of your still born daughter. All because you communicated terribly what you're true intentions were for the day.
they didn't realise that I have/had a bouquet because I hadn't thought to mentioned before because I didn't think I needed to because I thought it would be obvious.
At no point did you tell anyone you planned on bringing a bouquet with you. You only said you were walking down the isle with your dead daughters dress. You didn't think that maybe he didn't want to be reminded, immediately as you arrive on the alter, of his dead daughter? You didn't think. You're still mourning.
In my opinion this relationship is probably over. You communicate terribly. You ran away from the wedding that was planned since 2017. And you do not sound ok.
I'm so sorry for everything.